a review of my first writing

i started to write a short story , a horror one, when i was 8 yo. i still remember, my brother bought me so many Goosebumps novels and i was so infatuated with them. RL stine is a great author, and i could say, he is one of my inspirations to write a novel when i was kid.

i loved to create fictional characters using my friends' names, or borrowing one of their prominent characteristics, or just secretly "spilled" their secrets in my stories, hahhaha. but this one i never forget is the novel i had created when i was 11 to 12 yo (during primary six to secondary one) about a vicious circle of love.

first of all, i wrote that novel was because i was inspired one of the movies i watched (i forget the title :/ it was a Hollywood - unpopular indie movie) and there was a character named Randy. Randy in that movie, was a popular and rich guy, and he dated most of girls in high school but he secretly loved a nerd girl but he couldn't reach a nerd girl he really liked, :/

from that moment, during the long holiday and nothing to do (because in 2002 i didn't have mobile phone, no laptop, and i was easily bored when i watched TV- TV sucks somehow-ah yes i know :/) that was the time i started writing my very first novel (it contains 102 pages btw :p)

the story is about Sabrina , a 14 yo girl who adored a cute lad (and also a football player) named Randy Montana (i swear, it happened before Hannah Montana itself exist!). Because Randy was very popular, Sabrina or Sabs was afraid to approach him, and only saw him from a far. and one thing changed Sabs' life when she lent Randy her homework. Randy thought that Sabs was cute and sweet girl and since then Randy always tagged along whenever she went. He called Sabs every night and asked her out to eat Ice cream together (it's a nice date for a junior high student, believe me :p). In fact, Randy never told her that he loved her, because he was too afraid and too shy to confess.

on the other hand, Mark, the smartest guy in the class, and also Sabs' good friend, felt jealous when he knew that Randy was in love with Sabs. He knew Randy's secret: Randy ever kissed a girl named Kate in the girls toilet :/ (i know it's suck hahahha). Mark told Sabs that Randy was a playboy and he was not good enough for Sabs, however, she didn't believe him. And suddenly Sabs witnessed Kate kissed Randy in front of his locker room. :o

Sabs was very angry and cried but she couldn't do anything, Randy knew it and chased her but he lost her. Randy apologized but she didnt accept it, "it's too late" she said. Randy told her that Kate forced him to do that thing.

Three days later, Sabs met Tom, a 17 yo high school student who played guitar at her school concert. Tom is mature and seductive, and he saw Sabs was alone in the canteen and he approached her, asked her name and her phone number. Later, Tom visited her house, brought a cute teddy bear as a present, and asked her for a date. They went out to watch movies, and they met Mary, Sabrina's good friend who was very excited and a fan of Tom. Mary thought Sabs flirted Tom and asked him for a date, and she was surprised when Tom explained to her that he wanted the date, not Sabrina. Mary was a bit sad, why wasn't her to have a date with Tom? but she only kept it and never spitted it out.

Later, on the way home, Tom kissed Sabrina in the car, it was her first kiss, Randy hadn't kissed her yet (too bad randy!), then Tom asked her to be his girlfriend. Unfortunately, Sabs couldn't answer it because she still had a feeling for Randy. Tom said, he could wait for the answer.

in the classroom, Mark felt pity about Sabs, because she looked pale, sick, and sad (it was because she was confused about choosing Randy or Tom). he asked why, and she explained all things that happened to her. Mark realized that there was no opportunity to get Sabs' heart so he decided to help her to reconcile with Randy.

Moreover, Randy knew that Tom tackled him, he dated Sabs and it made Randy furious. He came to Tom's school and punched him on his face, then Tom beat him too. In the final,  Tom won the fight (yeah, Tom was taller and more muscular than Randy :p).

Sabs knew that Randy was hospitalized after Tom beat him, and she looked after him and took care of him at hospital. Randy told her that he loved her so much and didn't want her to leave, he asked her to stay with him.

Then she said yes, she loved him too, since the very first time on the first day of school.

Sabs called Mark and told all about the recent story, Mark wanted to meet her at the basketball court. There, Mark confessed his feeling but it was fine if Sabs didn't want him too. Mark liked her  since second grade, and his feeling stayed the same. in the end of story, they remained good friend.

cheesy love story when i was just a kid, and well, i should re-write and publish it i guess :/

fancy

you are cutie.. and everyone can't deny it.

you are the perfect thing i ve ever seen, and you know that .

you are like my brother, you did good things to me .

you always share stories, and i am a child who always believes in everything you say.

you look nice, i like your smile, your dimples, your curly hair, your skin.

i like the way you sleep, the way you dress up, the way you speak, the way you laugh,

you were mine

and i still cannot believe it, keep questioning it, why did you love me? did you really exist? or was it just a conspiracy?

you loved me, you had no reason for it, that was you said it.

and i said, "i love you, too. you are all that i wish"

we were just a boy and girl in love, i loved you, you loved me, we were happy lovebirds.

everyday i sent you mushy poetry

everyday i could not stop thinking about you,

everyday i sang a cheesy love song to you,

at midnight, i called you and asked, "do we see the same moonlight?"

but, we are not together anymore, you walk on your own, and i keep sauntering my path.

there is no traces but the memories, your pics on my laptop, and your bad smelly shirt.

and that is all the shitty things we said, "we can still be good friend after this" has been forgotten.

cause i know, or maybe you feel it too, every time we meet and talk would recall our reminiscence.

then we agreed that "get a life" and "mind your own business" are the proper words to remain.

years past, and probably i realize that i was too young and too dumb in love with you.

perhaps you were just a part of my beautiful obsessions.

now you move on, so do I.

and there is nothing to regret, i can assure it.

only when the rain comes, the petrichor will resonance this memory ever and ever again. But promise you, i would not be sad,

because someday, we'll retell this story whilst drinking coffee and make jokes of it.

and say, "Gee, still can't believe what we had done when we were just youngster! What a folly but fancy at the same time!"

welly welly well yes,

love can be so funny :)

mencintai itu bebas, menikah itu paksaan

y'ello :)

well, okay. setelah habis banyak membaca bahan bacaan yang tidak bisa dicerna, lalu kemudian ditinggal mandi dan balik baca lagi dan masih nggak bisa dicerna juga bacaannya. akhirnya terbesitlah mau nulis note ini.

Note ini dibikin tidak berdasarkan apa-apa, bukan curhat, bukan mau nge-judge, dan bukan apa-apa . yah cuma nulis aja. so here we go folks!

jadi begini, tadi pas makan bakso depan rumah (yaelah emang ga elit banget) ada seorang tetangga yang ikutan beli bakso juga. kebetulan si pedagang bakso ini punya TV yang lagi nyiarin pernikahan keraton Jogja (yah walopun siarannya gak bening-bening amat) lalu kemudian nyeletuk,

"harusnya semua stasiun tV nyiarin pernikahan keraton , gak cuma TVRI ajah yang burek kayak gini"

well, aku manggut-manggut sambil nunggu antrian bakso

kemudian,

"opo'o nek siaran e pangeran Inggris disiarne seluruh TV Indonesia. Ga masuk blas"

aku cuma mbatin, wah nasionalis banget orang ini, ada benernya juga sih yah. Kenapa kok siaran kawinannya Kate dan william semua statsiun TV berebut nayangin, padahal kita punya keraton juga di Jogja yang ga kalah kece dan keren. Aku setuju sama orang ini.

Kemudian,

"wong Indonesia saiky sithik-sithik senengane nang Londo, opo-opo Londo, Rabine njaluk karo Londo, ga gelem karo wong Indonesia maneh (Orang Indonesia sekarang maunya apa-apa Barat, Nikahnya pun minta sama orang Barat, gak mau sama orang Indonesia)"

aku cuma mikir... "allahu akbar, ini kenapa sih orang ._."

hagagag, bukannya atau gimana atau giman yang gak gimana gimana. Kita tahu lah yah, most of indonesia people itu kalo lihat eropa ato orang eropa (ga munafik, saya juga ahahah :p) itu kayaknya, "so wow" banget. Kalo istilah kerennya sih Anglophilic. iyasih ituloh "fetish berlebihan terhadap kaum-kaum anglosaxon" .

tapi kok saya agak gak setuju sama yang satu ini.

Menurut saya, nikah itu sakral banget loh, kok picik banget yah bilang "wong indonesia gak gelem rabi karo wong Indonesia, njaluke Londo".

Orang nikah kan punya berbagai alasan: kecocokan, harta, atau apapunlah yang bisa dijadikan alesan (atau alasan "pokonya dia bule" pun bisa dijadikan alasan sih :p)

tapi yah gak gitu juga kali yah, nikah sama bule bukan berarti menganggap bule itu superior, itu masalah selera ajah sih, misalnya,

"aku suka makan bakso, ga suka makan pizza"

itu bukannya berarti kita udik, lah emang gak doyan pizza mau gimana coba?

"aku gak suka sayur lodeh, tapi sukanya burger"

balik lagi masalah selera, lah emang ga suka makanan bersantan macam gini mau gimana ._.

yang jelas bila seseorang memutuskan , "okey, aku mau nikah sama kamu" itu kan juga bukan keputusan mikir 5 menit, paling gak lah bertapa gitu dulu di kamar mandi, atau gulung-gulung di kasur gitu cari wangsit. Di belahan dunia manapun, menikah itu konsekuensi dan keputusan yang besar banget.

Menikah memang kadang gak bisa sesuai dengan apa yang kita mau, tapi paling nggak , kalo memutuskan menikah itu kan berarti ada alasan (atau paksaan :p) kan?

satu lagi masalah stereotype, "kamu kalo nikah sama bule, paling awet mah 10 tahun"

ini macam apalagi cobak ._. back in the old days, buyut guweh nikah sama bule juga sampek kakek-nenek kagak kenapa-kenapa tuh, kagak cerai, kagak gimana juga ._.

terus macam apalagi coba, "nikah harus sama orang Jawa"

allahu akbar, ini namanya chauvinist dan mengkotak-kotakkan manusia, kenapa cobak ada satu keluarga yang anti banget sama ras dan suku tertentu. Hello, terus kalo udah terlanjur cinta gimana? cinta kan gak bisa milih?

Kalo misalnya emang sekarang kamu cintanya sama orang arab, negro, pakistan, india, belanda, eskimo, emang bisa yah dicegah? :(

The Great Gatsby Movie- with me as the Director

hellooo old sport!

(gaya banget nih guweeeh manggil old sport :p ketahuan kalo habis nonton Great gatsby)
kali ini aku mau mengulas tentang film Great Gatsby. hahahha 
kayakna basi banget yak, udah diputer Maret 2013 kemaren tapi review na baru sekarang. Okelah tak mengapa, sebenerna mau nulis dari awal aku habis nonton dulu sih tapi karena malas banget yah akhirnya baru kesampaian skr.. *maapkan*

first of all, aku mau bilang makasih sama ini http://byotenega.wordpress.com/ blog . Agak telat sih ngikutinnya (kamu kemana ajah Ve, baru sekarang nulisnya, padahal batas akhir penulisan tanggal 31 Agustus 2013) okey aku mau jawab.. aku sibuk bingiittt... sibuk mainan sama leha-leha, terhitung deh ada 5 bulan ini aku nggak baca buku sama sekali *Gila, tampar aku sekarang*. Kerja yang nggak pas bikin kamu nggak nyaman, nggak nyaman tidur, nggak nyaman makan, bahkan nggak nyaman ngapa-ngapain. Meskipun nulis! eh tapi yasudahlah, kok jadi malah curhat. hagagga, okesip here we go, 

aku mau ngulas film Great Gatsby, udah pada tau kand film Great Gatsby?
Jangan bilang nggak tahu, apalagi kalo kamu anak Sastra Inggris (sini aku jitak kamu ngaku anak Sasing tapi nggak pernah baca Great Gatsby).
Aku dulu pertama kali baca jaman kuliah semester 4, ini buku wajib yang dibaca , secara buku paket aku dulu *ceileh buku paket, sekolah di SD Negeri mana non?* mengulas semua teori filosofi dan sastra dengan mengambil contoh dari novel ini. Hhahahaha, nasib masuk kuliah sastra, kamu harus sering-sering baca buku, sering-sering lihat film dan ngebandingin. Apa filosofi dari karya sastra itu, apa moral value yang diangkat dsb dan bla bla bla (untuk lebih jelas silakan kuliah di fakultas sastra guys ;) )

Sebenernya ini ulasan iseng-iseng sih. Bukan mengulas isi cerita atau gimana. Tapi kemarin salah satu student aku minta tolong untuk mereview salah satu novel dan bagaimana film itu nantinya akan dijadikan sebuah film. Pura-puranya sih kita yang jadi Producer dan Sutradara dan mau bikin film yang kayak gimana. Jadi mulai pilih ide cerita, screenplay, casting dsb (FYI, student aku ambil kelas sastra di sekolahnya, cool x) ). Jadi pas kemarin aku tunjukkin film Great Gatsby versi terbaru 2013 (yg main si ganteng Leo di Caprio) eh dia langsung suka. Pas aku sodorin novelnya, dia nggak mau baca. hahhahaha

padahal novelna ga tebel-tebel banget sik., Tapi bahasanya emang agak too classy. Secara lah dia masih ABG, ogah baca gituan. Tapi beberapa bulan lalu dia dibeliin sama bokapnya novel Anna Karenina yg tebelna duileeeh..english version pula. HAHAHAHHA. makan tuh *smirk*

Jadi i helped her to choose the actors and actresses  for the roles in Great Gatsby.
Jadi ceritanya, kita jadi tukang Casting dan Sutradara Hollywood yang pura pura mau bikin film versi taun 2014. hahahha, okay here is the list :


yang jadi Nick Carraway

TA-DAH!

iyeee kita akhirnya pilih Ryan Gosling, hahahhaha. Kecakepan yah? iyah sih, Ryan Gosling nggak ada cupu-cupunya kalo dibandingin Tobey Maguire. tapi kalo di novel Nick Carraway itu diportrayed sebagai "cowok canggung dan tinggi" . well, aku pikir sih justru Tobey Maguire yg agak gak cocok, habis dy boncel sih ._. lagipula di The Notebook, badan Ryan Gosling yang kurusan udah cocok banget jadi Nick Carraway, yah kalo kalian kebanyakan lihat Ryan Gosling maen film film oke, dengan muka dy yg gentle pasti kalian mikir kayakna kalo dia maen jadi Nick di Great Gatsby boleh juga sih. Kalo kata dunia perfilman, improvisasi karakter, jadi dia bisa maen karakter apa aja gitu. Tapi kalo dilihat lihat , mereka berdua ada kemiripan deh .

yang jadi Daisy Buchanan

yups. anda benar! INI MICHELLE WILLIAMS!
tampangnya udah kayak emak-emak jaman taun 30 an ,dengan rambut blonde dipotong pendek banget. cocok banget kan sama karakter Daisy Buchanan yg diperanin sama Carey Mulligan

nah kalo yang ini Carrey Mulligan

udah kayak saudara kembar yah mereka?

jadi semisal kalo Carrey Mulligan gak dapet peran jadi Daisy ato semisal ada Great Gatsby versi terbaru, Michelle williams emang cocok banget dapet peran itu. Muka-mukanya mereka itu kayak gadis cantik yg rapuh dan mengharap cinta gitu ,hahahha.

yang jadi Tom Buchanan:

ENG-ING-ENG

ROBERT DOWNEY JR

entah yah mengapa, student aku pilih orang ini, ketika aku njelasin kalo karakter Tom Buchanan itu ganteng, parlente tapi sombong dan sok. Kita berdua langsung bilang, "Robert Downey Jr!" , "yang jadi The Iron Man!". jujur aku kurang suka sama aktor ini, gak tahu deh gayanya dari dulu gini-gini doank. Tapi yasudahlah, mukanya dia emang udah borju abis. Dan cocok sama karakter Tom (atau mungkin dia aslinya juga kayak gini yah? *no idea*)
btw, ini yg jadi Tom Buchanan di Great Gatsby edisi 2013. Gantengan om Tony Stark sih yah emang. 

yang jadi Myrtle 

kalo yg versi 2013 yg jadi si binal Myrtle itu Isla Fisher, (dan karakter si myrtle ini bener-bener harus binal abis). kayakna kalo aku bikin versi aku sendiri aku bakalan milih Marion Cottilard. hahahhaha, i know i know. kalo aku milih Marion Cottilard entar Great Gatsby bakalan jadi twisted story. Karena Marion emang bukan binal biasa (BBB). Coba lihat dia pas lagi maen di Midnight in Paris, waktu dia jadi Adriana, dan juga jadi pacar/selingkuhan imajinernya Owen Wilson. Dia oke banget jadi cewek binal, tapi binal yang punya sedikit...sisi gelap. Tapi yah kalo aku jadi sutradara, agak maksain si Marion ini biar jadi bener-bener the real party slut gitu sih, bisa lah yah...

Honestly, aku suka sama mukanya dia. Cantiknya alami ala gadis gadis prancis. jadi kalo misal dia beneran jadi Myrtle, kira-kira dandananya harus semerah ini.

MARION COTTILARD

ISLA FISHER

Yang jadi Jordan Baker, sahabat na si Nick dan Daisy

Agak susah sih milih karakter Jordan baker ini, cewekna harus tinggi, sporty, dan memiliki karisma yg cantik dan agak sedikit quirky. Agak puyeng juga pas bantuin student aku buat milih aktris hollywood mana yang pas jadi Jordan, dan voila ! kepikiranlah aku sama Anne Hathaway!

Inget pas dia maen film apa gitu (yang dapet oscar, aku lupa, Les Miserables bukan?) yang rambut dia dibabat habis jadi pendek banget! yes! she got that classy look!

Jordan yg punya jaunty body, agak sedikit nakal dan sedikit plin plan cocok banget kalo dimainin sama Ms. Hathaway ini. Sempet kepikiran pakai Natalie Portman apa yah, tapi Natalie terlalu pendek kalo jadi Jordan ;p .

Lagipula, sisi tomboy Anne bisa dikeluarin, keliatan kan pas dia maen The Dark Knight Rises yg jadi Cat woman? keluar banget aura "tangguh" na dia. Cocok deh mainin karakter jordan, yg di novel diceritain sebagai seorang borjuis dan pe-golf terkenal.

dan yang dibawah ini yang jadi Jordan Baker di versi 2013 ELIZABETH DEBICKI

yang jadi George Wilson, suami dari Myrtle Wilson

nah kalo yang ini yang main di versi 2013 kemaren. Agak susah juga sih, kira kira siapa yah cocok mainin karakter George Wilson yang  cupu, dan payah dan gampang dibohongin ini. Student aku nyeletuk, "sudah daripada kita pusing, mari pakai Johnny Depp saja". GILAAAA. SUPER GILAAA. Johnny Depp mana ada tampang kayak gini? dipaksain susah mah, jadinya malah aneh, bukan twisted lagi. stelah berpikir panjang dan (serius) butuh waktu hampir 45 menit. Akhirnya aku menemukan ini

SEAN ASTIN

yups, ini Sean Astin! yang jadi Sam di film LOTR. Agak mirip kan sama yg jadi George Wilson (foto atas). yah meskipun agak imut-an Sean astin, tapi mukanya dia pas banget sama apa yang digambarin di novel. Bodoh, dan tidak berdaya. Semisal kalo dipasangin sama Marion Cottilard fit juga kan? Marion yang cantik dan punya sisi gelap, butuh orang yang kayak Robert Downey, yang bisa memahami sisi liarnya. Sean Astin tampangnya juga cocok kalo jadi orang galau dan kalut dan akhirnya bisa ngebunuh Gatsby di akhir cerita.

the main menu: siapa yang cocok jadi Jay Gatsby?

jujur ini yang paling susah, siapa yah yg cocok jadi gentleman macam Gatsby, selain Leonardo di Caprio berikut ini adalah foto pemeran gatsby dari masa ke masa (kiri-kanan: tahun 50an, 70an, 2000, 2013, fyi aku paling suka yg jadi Jay Gatsby tahun 70 an, namanya Robert Redford). Meski film versi 70 an ga sebagus versi yg 2013, tapi kalo boleh bandingin setelah nonton kedua versi, karakter jay gatsby lebih mengena dan lebih menjiwai yg versi 70 an,Robert redford lebih cocok sama karakter yang ada di novel daripada Leo. (hanya untuk karakter Jay Gatsby na saja, kalo tokoh yg lain versi 2013 is much better). Kalo yg versi lain aku belum nonton.

nah lalu kira-kira siapa yg cocok untuk berperan sebagai Jay Gatsby untuk film versi aku ini sendiri. Susah banget emang, aku suka Christian Bale, tapi Christian Bale badannya terlalu tinggi untuk karakter Jay Gatsby, lagipula rambut Mr. Bale nggak pirang :p  (kalo yang ini mah bisa disemir kaleeee). 

setelah menimbang dan menimbang, aktor yag rambutnya cocok buat di trimmed kayak gitu emang cuma ini .

 TOM CRUISE :D

iyeee, coba bayangin, Tom Cruise dengan rambut semi-blond nya pake jas kuning gading macem Leo yang ada di foto atas. lagipula, Tom cruise udah sering maen film drama yah, jadi cocok ajah kalo dia jadi Jay gatsby (yah walopun tampang agak ketuaan juga sih). Badan tom cruise juga nggak tinggi (168cm sama kayak Leo, kurang lebih lah). Dan pas banget kalo dipasangin sama Michelle williams.

Overall, kalo misal beneran semua peran yg ada di Gatsby ini macem bintang kelas wahid semua kayak gini., Budget yang dikeluarin mahal donk yah :( , kalo misal kalian disuruh bikin list aktor buat casting Jay Gatsby kira-kira kalian bakal pilih siapa nih? :)

pilih aktor buat casting juga nggak gampang loh, ini contohnya, kalo kalian pernah nonton The Godfather (film tahun 70an yang kece abis), sang Sutradara Ford Coppola punya beberapa list pemain sebelum akhirnya terpilihlah Marlon Brando dan Al pacino .

here is the proof . enjoy.

LIKE OR NOT?

:( ANDREW,

YOU JUST APPEAR AND DISAPPEAR ANY TIME YOU WANT,

EAT ME !

DO YOU KNOW THAT I AM SO FUCKING MISSING YOU RIGHT NOW?

salah paham

well okay, let me write it without thinking , and considering , and guessing THAT NO ONE WOULD READ MY BLOG!

and that's why i write on blog, hahhaha xD

well okay, back then from the lastweek!

aku ngobrol banyak sama Andrew, well, kayakna dia boring ato sebel gara" aku yang banyak bacot. it's a big NO NO for your second date~! really!
dia buru" pamitan mau pergi sama keluarganya, well, i think dia lagi malas ngobrol atau merasa kepaksa gitu yah, that he knew that i was really boring? *sigh*

setelah dia pamitan , dan kita pulang, aku sms dia supaya take care di jalan. and NO REPLY.

aku nungguin sampai besok mungkin dia mau balas , ternyata sampai hari selasa, dia gak balas juga.

aku tahu, aku yang keburu GR atau semacamnya, had a thought that he would like me? please.
who AM I?

he's really handsome, dan aku cuma upik abu kayak gini. -________- i am gonna hit my head after this .

dan sampai sekarang, aku gak bisa berhenti mikirin dia, kira-kira kenapa dia gak balas sms aku atau seenggaknya trying buat calling aku atau tanya kabar aku.
aku rasa aku yang kegenitan deh, dari dulu aku terus yang sms duluan dan rasanya dia cuma "kelihatannya" nanggepin sms anak kecil yg kasihan kalo gak dibalas. eat me!!!!

aku sedih, kalo ini udah nunjukin SIGN kalo aku tertolak yah sudah lah yah emang aku bisa apa. nyadar sih mungkin dia cari yang lebih mature, secara dia udah 28 tahun dan pasti cari yang serius DAN cari yang single. hagagaga. shit. dia tau kali yah kalo aku punya pacar, trus kenapa dia mau aku ajakin ketemuan?

sedih sih, sedih banget :( rasanya mau nangis. :( :(

Is this Love or Myth?

YesterdayI waited for your friends to walk awaySo I could say just what I mean
I know we're moving fastWe're running from the pastI'm holding on before it fades away
Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake?And baby, that's alrightIt's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why theySay that we should give it timeBut time is not enough and that's the reason whyWhen you're young, you fall in love
Standing stillI'm waiting 'round to see if this is real'Cause I feel like I'm asleep
I'll open up my eyes'Cause you might be the typeOf boy that makes me dream when I'm awake
Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake?And baby, that's alrightIt's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
So tell me can this really workOr will we end up getting hurt?Is this love or myth?
So tell me are you ready for thisThere's so much more than we can seeMore than you, more than meIt takes two lovelies

dear blog,
kemarin aku ketemu sama dia lagi , tapi cuma sebentar mihihi.

kali ini aku yang banyak ngoceh :/ aku takut bikin kesan gak asik, ditengah convo dia sedikit menguap, mungkin dia boring kali yah -_-!! tapi pas terakhir kita mau say goodbye, dia bilang kalo dia enjoying our convo. ehm, masa sih? kalo aku pikir aku kemarin yang terlalu dominated, dan dia cuma listening dan listening. dan di akhir convo, he gave his best smile :) and tossed my head. aku bener" nemuin sosok "abang" di dalam dirinya. uhm, apa ini yg disebut jatuh cinta? hmm.. nggak kali yah, kurasa ini cuma sekedar kekaguman, he's nice, calm dan honest, tapi kenapa habis ketemu itu aku gak bisa tidur yah? .

♥

KYAAAAAAA!!!!

HE IS CALLING ME!~ ♥

HE SAID "i was hoping to find you here, and finally, 

it's good to see you again" ♥

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

WHAT DID I DO YESTERDAY?

INI MUKA TARUUUKK DIMANAAA?

MIAPAAAH AKU NGAJAKIN ANDREW KETEMUAN?

IYAH KALO DIYAH NAKSIR GUWEH, KALO NGGAK?

SHYIIIITTT, PASTI GUWEH MAREN LAGI MABOK PARAH. MABOK PARAH, MABOK PARAH.

ADUUUH, GAK BERANI BUKA HAPE. BELUM DIBALES, TAPI TAKUT APA NANTIK BALESANNAAA...

D'OOOOOOOOOOH BISA GAK SIH SMS YANG TERLANJUR TERKIRIM DI PENDING ULANG, DI CANCEL LAH, DI DELETE KALO PERLU..

ALLAHU AKBAAAR, HIKZ., MAU DITARUK DIMANA MUKA GUWEH?

EMANG GUWEH SIAPA BERANI NGAJAK KETEMUAN?

NYAAAAAAAAAAAAH :((((((((((((((((((

i would do anything for you :)

Never wanna stand up for myself
Never wanna get in the way, I said it
I don’t know what the plan is,
But you can share with me,
‘cause I’ll Be listening here,
To everything you say, I won’t turn away
And I will listen, open up my heart and
I must say that I love you, so

Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known

Every day is a battle I face
Strange life i live but its what you've decided
I’ll give it all into your hands,
Do what you will with me, and oh
I’ll smile when you speak
Remember all those times I was hoping for something
And shaking my head from all I have done
But you never left me

Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known

Give it up for you, I would give it up for you
I would give it up for you, I’d do anything for you

I have fallen in love

crush

kalian boleh anggap aku gila

kalian boleh anggap aku aneh

tapi apa yang terjadi padaku sekarang memang aneh

apa yg aneh

akhir-akhir ini aku nggak bisa berhenti mikirin seseorang, dan aku nggak tahu kenapa

kita hanya berkenalan sepintas, tapi entah mengapa begitu berkesan

"dia yang dulu penah menghilang kini telah kembali lagi"

menyapa aku lagi,

dengan senyumannya yang sama hangatnya ketika aku berkenalan dengannya

dia masih tetap gila olahraga, cuek, dan individualis

dia bukan orang yang spesial

bukan pula cowok cowok populer ato cowok cowok tampan yang biasa kalian lihat di majalah

tapi... dia begitu "impressive" begitu orang bilang

dari sekian banyak mata, mata nya begitu indah

"aku suka mata kamu" aku pernah mengatakannya sekali, dan dia hanya tertawa kecil

mungkin dia hanya menganggap aku gadis kecil yang hanya menjadi teman sepintas .

teman dikala dia bosan, teman dikala dia kesepian .

apa yang membuat dia begitu spesial dimataku? apakah ini yang disebut dengan crush?

apakah aku hanya rindu akan rasanya jatuh cinta?  

aku tidak berani berkata kalau aku rindu, apakah aku cuma rindu obrolan manis kita ketika larut malam?

mungkin .

walaupun kita tidak pernah mengobrol apa itu yang dinamakan cinta. 

ah, baiklah sudah lupakan . anggap saja aku hanya suka belaka . 

i remember

Salut folks :*

lama qt tak berjumpa, hahhahah, sibuk kerja cin dan sibuk ngurusin diri sendiri dan ngatur keuangan yang kadang-kadang bikin sumpek -__-. Perasaan uang di dompet kemaren tebel, 3 hari kemudian tiba tiba jadi tipis, entah deh yah hilang kemana, atau mungkin ini dompet bisa makan uang sendiri :0

ngomongin soal kesibukan sekarang aku kerja di salah satu universitas terkeren seantero jagad raya sebagai editor jurnal akademik :D yay!~ bukan pekerjaan yg okeh sih sebenernya, tapi yah gapapa lah buat langkah awal, pekerjaan ini lumayan buat jadiin aku sebagai orang yg sedikit ke organized,

i am reckness organized person, kadang-kadang aku bisa jadi orang yg sangat rajin, berambisi dan bersemangat, kadang-kadang bisa pengen gak ngapa-ngapain !

well, wajar kan yahy? *alibi , kerjaan makin numpuk gara-gara kemalasan ini,

ada sebuah quote bagus ini "why don't you procrastinate your procrastination?"

HAHAHAHAHA. SUSAH TAUK!

iyah deh kadang pengen gitu ga jadi pemalas, pengen jadi cewek yang rajin, organized dan tipe-tipe mantu idaman gitu. kayakna butuh keteguhan hati yang keras gitu yah.

well, many things happened during these late 3 months. hmm.. apa yah, banyak sih. aku juga lupa mau nyebutin apa ajah yah.

banyak hal unik yang terjadi, banyak rahasia rahasia yang terungkap, dan banyak kejadian yang bisa jadi pelajaran. 

hmm apa yah yang terjadi tiga bulan terakhir ini, coba aku list satu satu:

1. aku udah move on dari raphael, gyahahahah, apaan sih yah penting banget cerita kayak ginian, ah iyah sih penting kok, selama 8 bulan aku galau ngalur ngidur, begged him to come back to me udah keliatan sia sia. he has a new gf, ah baiklah, semoga bahagia saja yah :)

2. Andrew balik hubungin aku lagi yay!!!! :D sumpah aku seneeeeng bangeeet, aku kira dia diculik alien ternyata dia cuma disembunyiin sama monster gua ajah, hagagag

apalagi yah, apalagi yah.. lupa deh . nanti aku ceritain lagi yah, :p